Today is day 11 on the new med. I'm not feeling any effects yet. Last night was the second night I've been completely weaned off the old drug, so the next week or two should be telling, particuarly if the lack of the old medication is going to hit me hard. I'm treatment-resistant, so many … Continue reading Head vs. Heart
I'm not in a good spot right now. I feel like I've hit a wall again, pharmaceutically speaking. This is what happens, you take meds long enough and you build up a tolerance to them and they just don't hit the mark anymore. So I'm phasing out one mood stabilizer as I start another, one … Continue reading It’s a Small World, After All
I'm tired of facing the same old crap day after day and nothing changing. But then, I'm not changing anything to make change happen, so why the fuck am I bitching? I'm just tired of fighting, I guess. I'm tired of never getting anywhere. Tired of being alone. I'm lonely but don't feel like I've … Continue reading Tired
After weeks of mania, the inevitable crash that follows is in process. I'm not in a good way and am likely going into full-on Hermit Mode shortly. One of the more frustrating things for me is that very few people in my life (friends or family) know anything about what it's like to suffer with … Continue reading Things Not to Say to a Depressed Person
Christmas was plenty uneventful. I did nothing. I got nothing. I spoke to no one for half the day. Just another day. And that was fine with me. Not a jolly ol' fan, shall we say. Then, even though I didn't want to leave the house, I was pressured to go to dinner at a … Continue reading Blah Blah Blah
"Hey, why don't you smile?" Whenever I hear someone say that I want to answer, "Hey, why don't you fuck off?" Maybe I don't feel like smiling, did you ever think of that? Maybe I don't feel like I have much to smile ABOUT right now. Maybe you should mind your own business and put … Continue reading Smile
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